She refers to her past as the time before she was "blown away.

“This isn't champagne anymore. We went through the champagne a long time ago. Th…”

“Austin: "Well it is like salvation sort of. I mean the smell. I love the smell …”

“You can’t keep messing me around like this. It’s been going on too long. I can’…”

“Those are the most monotonous fuckin' crickets I ever heard in my life.”